Feelings

Feelings are just emotions which people have, and yet how can we escape this sensation? everything is onli a feeling, everything is temporal and nothing forever, although we would like to believe the opposite, the truth is just too in your face...

why bother to try if there is a possibility of being hurt? love is only a feeling.... can it last forever? only in fairy tales... i once was a believer and now... how sad i must seem to myself back then.... but who's to blame? is it me for not trying enough? or is it just the way things are and there is no way to fight it?

new philosophy? just be in everything for a ride? if it doesnt work out den just bail? its against my basic nature but what am i to do? how long can i dream for? in the end i am but just a fool... shouldnt i quit this foolish behaviour? i havent a clue on what to do... do i betray who i am so that everything will just be so much simpler and easier to deal with? i dont know if there will come a day where i can do so...

what am i to do but to just take things the way it is... i am who i am and i cannot betray myself because i know myself too well... i am my own bane.... cheers to my spilt blood over the years... but i am still standing here, learning, living and forging ahead... my spilt blood serves as a reminder to myself but sometimes it just seems that i step over the dried blood and forget, only to spill more fresh blood...

another chance, another try... thats what we all have so why not... just give it another shot... harness all that u have learnt and improve... in the end everything will be alrite... wouldnt it?



sleep perchance to dream
i dream so that i can feel
foolish that i am but who can deny me
i am my own bane
i refuse to betray my own self
i am a fool who knows too much