finished.....

it is finished... finally... after all these years... there is a conclusion.... everything is settled....



so anyway... there's this girl.... whom ive had feelings before... for the longest time.... like since secondary school.... she went away to study overseas..... she came back for holidays and then she came back for good.... whenever she was in singapore, we got closer.... i think there were a couple of times when i made my feelings known... during the early stages that is....



this time, she was back for good.... and the feelings were still there..... but i did my best to suppress them... i knew it cannot work out.... i always felt she was too good for me.... and everytime we went out.... i get all mushy inside.... lol.... the thing is.... she does not know how she makes me feel at all.... jealous, sad, frustrated... i just kept it in....

well... my friends always felt that i should just move on.... she isnt worth it... blah blah blah... and i finally told myself ya.... i shouldnt take this shit anymore.... so... it was easy.... she was going off for another one of her holidays..... and so it was simple.... just avoid her.... it and it was fine.... out of sight, out of mind.... and ive never felt better....

den suddenly... this year... she says that w should meet up.... havent met for so long... and my insides were all screwed up again.... i know i should have just ignored her all the way.... but its tuff u know... its my soft spot.... so i agreed to meet for dinner and a movie.... 2 days b4 we were supposed to meet, she asks me if i would prefer to meet a day earlier.... saying that she would rather see me sooner and all (typical girl flirting technique).... so i said sure... u know... in a whatever sort of way.... den she aks me again... "tim..... is there somethin wrong...... if u do not want to meet its fine....." so i did my part.... i reassured her...... den a few minutes later... she asks the same thing again.... and i was fed up u know.... i told her... if it so difficult den just forget it.... den i proceeded to switch off my phone... later on.... i found 2 msgs.... one is blah blah blah.... if im a thorn on ur side blah blah blah.... den the next one.... she goes on to apologise for everything..... she used the word everything....

so it is done.... finished... my mind is put to rest....