chakra.....

so here i am again....

i cant fall asleep.... i went to bed earlier and woke up after half an hour for no rhyme or reason.... its now 445am... omg....

my brother gave me 2 sleeping pills.... i dunno why but i seem to be resisting them.... here are some reasons...

- its already 445am... i most probably will fall asleep soon... taking a pill now will probably be wasting it... practical reasons...

- if i take one to fall asleep, will i then become dependent upon sleeping pills to fall asleep next time? paranoid mentality.....

cant realli remember the other reasons..... hey.... u cant blame me... i havent been sleeping enough..... so much so... that i have a double layer eye bag.... yes its true!!! there's a smaller more pronounced "bag" directly below the eye.... and it is encircled by a larger dark ring.... gross rite?

anyway.... i want to talk about something....

i have this memory when i was young... that my mother brought me to a temple.... there, the monks sort of did something.... they opened my third eye it seems.... recently, i asked my mother about it.... and she says that she did bring me to a temple when i was young... but the details were fuzzy.... im pretty sure they opened my third eye... i remember it rather vividly.... but dont worry... i dont think i can see ghosts....

anyway... i did some research into this area.... and it seems that the third eye is actually a chakra.... an energy point in the body... and the significance of this particular chakra is that.... it allows the individual to be more aware of things happening.... and to be more open to things... sort of opening your mind... if u know what i mean.... and it is the chakra for visions... i dont believe in that by the way.... actually... i dont know....

well... anyway.... the thing is... i feel that i have a good attention for details.... and i always seem to notice things and remember stuff without knowing.... however, i found out... there is a downside to this.... it seems that my heart is more frail.... because the mind is strong, the heart is frail.... because u always notice facts and truths, u lose heart in many matters..... know what i mean? anyway... if u dont jus go and google it..... its called the ajna chakra....

im going to try to sleep in a while.... tomorrow night i will go to bed early and take one pill.... oh ya... i jus remembered another reason why i didnt take a pill up to now....

maybe after i fall asleep.... i wont wake up?