she

she who once caught my eye...

there was once this girl who caught my eye.... she was unnoticed at first, but subsequent times when i saw her, i began to see her more beauitful side... sure she is somewhat wild and crazy... but i saw through all that.... and noticed that she was actually very very vulnerable... had fun times... had bad times... but one thing was for sure.... there was no dull moment around her... she makes sure of it one way or another...

first time i met her... thought that she was some ah lian... second time i met her... thought that she was a little crazy... ah... but the third time... the third time i actually sat down and talked with her... it was by chance that we met that day and had gone home together and that we sat down at a coffeeshop and we talked... but that one chance let me get to know her better... and understand her better...

feelings grew.... complications arose.... arguments... and then silence.... feelings fade.... tried to fade anyway.... hung up over much time... and then heart wrenches and aches... feelings just wouldnt go away... what was i to do..... what was i to say.... really dont know.... but once again... everything just falls into place...(always does doesn't it?) friends again.... a year older now.... grown up now.... understand things better.... clearer picture of the situation and all is forgiven.... doesnt matter anymore anyway... the past that is....

what will happen next... nobody knows... play it as it comes... expect nothing and lose nothing...


do not dwell on the past for it is history and cannot be changed...
do not worry about the future for we have no control over it....
live for the present for it is now and we only live once....

she......