seething hope.....

i know most of the time, my posts sounds rather sad... it at least starts off sad.... when i wanted to write this post, i wanted to start with, "despair....", "as i drown in......" but i thought i'll try something different for a change....



OH MY GOD!!!! this was the best day ever!!!!! It was like...........................................



i'm sorry... did i disappoint? i just cannot do it... it does not seem natural to me.... i'm a pessimist.... u know... glass half empty? half full of poison? if u have read my preious posts, maybe u can tell? for example....

as i dwelve deeper into this pool of sorrow

my mind is twirled darker

along with it goes hope and light

in a nightmare which i cannot awaken

on the edge of insanity

demise seems emminent

my soul reaches further into the dark side

a comforting madness carresses me

i give over to the warm embrace

so is the picture clearer now? dark... i guess thats what i am.... but anyway... what i wanted to write about is that tomorrow promises to be a smash.... but promises are broken so often.... are they not? i do hope that it'll be good tomorrow night.... if not i'll just depend on the alcohol to keep me satisfied.... always help doesnt it? liquid poison... clear.... sweet... and burning down the throat....

i thirst......