my birthday.....

trying my best,
to get by,
but i always fall,
and so i sigh.

feeling lonely,
insecure and sad,
troubles finding me,
only dreams i've had.

tears streaming down,
cold upon my face,
trickling down,
gone without a trace.

memories come,
shackled by ghosts,
i drink by myself,
i propose a toast.

cheers to tears,
crying in my soul,
filled an empty heart,
swallowed me whole.

here i am,
far away,
try as i do,
can't get away.